I just realized it has been over a year since I last posted here – SHAME ON ME!

My world, in general, has been all messed up.  Such is life!  My problem is me.

I have to work hard to keep myself out of “funk,” and it’s a disaster when I fail. When I get my funk on, I get angry and deeply depressed and want to crawl off into a corner and disappear. 

The world has become so messed up and angry, and I have allowed it to affect me in all the worst possible ways.

When you are someone who has depression, you have to watch yourself and the things around you all the time.  Usually, when I start to feel like I want to crawl into a closet and hide, that’s a pretty good sign to stop myself and breathe. Deep breathing helps me a lot, but not always.  My real go-to cure is my crafting. 

I have several different crafts that I enjoy:

• Knitting
• Crochet
• Handmade cards (love this!!)
• Beading
• Embroidery
• Sewing (still working on this one, not my favorite, but getting better)
• Painting (right now, the thrill is watercolors)
• And, of course, gardening

I can’t concentrate on gardening during the wrong time of year.  We used to have a vast greenhouse, so it was easy to carry it all year.  The damn tornado took the roof (double-layer plastic) right off.  A dear friend helped us to build it, and it was brilliant to have us use a 3-foot-deep cement and rebar base and then connect the metal ribs to that strong base.  The base is still perfect, but it has been a struggle to buy a new cover.  When we originally built it, no one would insure it (should have checked into that BEFORE construction – then start stashing).  So, when the wind blew, so did the roof, and now, it has been a slow haul to save up enough to recover. 

I just need to remember to pull up my big girl panties and get on with it!